One day, when Ian and I still lived near Nashville, he needed a sudden favor that involved my taking an impromptu trip to Fort Campbell, KY, about a 45-minute drive.
I had an early copy of Pretty Much True I wanted to bring to the Clarksville cabstand dispatcher, known in the book as “Shellie.” (Her real name is Sheila. I know – hardly a creative adaptation. What can I say? Her name just fits her.) She is, without exaggeration, the sunshiniest person I’ve ever met. A widow, she’d pulled herself through the loss and gone on to do this thing we call “living.” Boat trips on the river, lusting after Mister H. (the man who sold fresh vegetables on the corner at the bottom of the cabstand’s hill), taking care of her dog Puddin’ (name not changed for the book), and taking pride in her trailer, the homiest looking one in the otherwise dingy, dogs-chained-outside lot.
Sheila’s also sweet. Too sweet.
“You catch more bees with honey,” she said when I asked why she didn’t stand up for herself more. Some of the other dispatchers would take advantage of Sheila — because it was easy. And I was no better, I suppose. I was a grumpy driver, at times. There are those days…sometimes you can only take so much, when it makes you sick to keep driving a guy who says it’s his dog lying dead, there, at the corner, and naw, he’s not too worried about it because he got another one.
Those days, when Sheila would call me about a run, I didn’t do a very good job of disguising my mood. (I’ve long been an incorrigible complainer. “Stop complaining,” my 12th grade physiology teacher, Mr. Baxter, once said.)
I figured I owed her a book, at the very least. And I thought she might like that she’d inspired a character.
The first stop was Fort Campbell, but after that, I drove through Clarksville and pulled into Sheila’s trailer park. I thought I’d see if she was home in case she didn’t work Fridays. (It was on the way.) I didn’t see her bright blue pickup; instead, there was a minivan parked outside. New car?
I got out of my car and walked up to the door, knocked, then looked through the window of her outdoor porch. Kids’ toys. Nope – she didn’t live there anymore.
My guess: she shacked up with Mr. H.
Construction on the only main road that would take me from Sheila’s to the cabstand made that road’s normally heavy and slow-moving traffic (a two-lane, this) downright ridiculous, but it cleared out, as it always does, on the road that follows the Riverwalk.
The Riverwalk is where Pretty Much True‘s protagonist, Mia, parks her taxi for a break from driving (rather, the fares) and remembers her deployed boyfriend, Jake, taking her there for a picnic.
He pulled out two beers in cans, labels hidden by cozies, and handed me a cold, soggy drumstick.
Not far from there is the cab stand. Unrelated to the rest of this story, that tiny cab stand was the direct target of a microburst that dropped a flourescent lighting panel and sent me running into the bathroom, and then straight back out again after another driver–one who traded cab rides for oral sex and once got himself shot in the leg by a prostitute–had the same idea. (The bathroom is that door in the below image with the many laminated sheets tacked to it.)
The door stays closed to keep in Puddin’ and the dramatic lines of an eighties show bouncing off grime-coated walls. “We must find the size 9 shoe,” urges a TV detective. I cover my nose with my sweater cuff, pretending it’s for warmth.
The cab stand was just as smoke-thick when I visited. I smoked a contact cigarette while asking the dispatcher if Sheila still worked there.
“Naw,” he said. “She moved somewhere up north some time ago–”
(“Up north” is a different country, really, to some very southern southerners.)
“Wisconsin?” I said. She would often talk about Wisconsin, where she lived before moving to Tennessee.
“Yeah–yeah. Wisconsin. And then, I don’t know, I guess she died…what…about two years ago?”
Some people have too much life in them, too much happiness to die, so his saying this made no sense to me and I stood there for a second before saying, “Oh.”
After that, there really didn’t seem to be a reason to stay.
At the bottom of the hill, not far from a pickup truck bed loaded with baskets of potatoes, Mr. H–wearing a straw hat that shaded his blue eyes–sat on a swinging, shaded bench. A woman his age–80, 85–sat with him. I asked him about Sheila. He didn’t know what had happened (my guess is a heart attack; she’d had a bypass years before), but said he’d heard about her dying two years ago.
“I thought highly of her,” he said.
Sheila’s not someone who would care too much about dying. “My time’s up when it’s up.” However, I’m happy she–and her way of saying “tomatoes” (tuh-may-ters)–keeps living in print. She’s someone who simply should.
Kristen Tsetsi is the author of the post-Roe v. Wade novel The Age of the Child, called “scathing social commentary” and “a novel for right now.” She is also the author of the novels The Year of Dan Palace and Pretty Much True (studied in Dr. Owen W. Gilman, Jr.’s The Hell of War Comes Home: Imaginative Texts from the Conflicts in Afghanistan and Iraq). Kristen’s interview series at JaneFriedman.com offers behind-the-scenes insights into all things writing and publishing.